Confusion

Confusion:

Last Saturday, I got home from an awesome weekend with a long lost friend of mine. He travels quite often and was very impressed he had time for us. When I got home, I decided to catch on some TV to avoid revisiting the date over and over and over. Tia and Tamera was on, on the E! channel on DSTV. Yes, I know the wedding may have taken place some time back as Multichoice has a tendency of showing us very old programs yet we pay so much. the only thing they bring current is the Sports channel especially the leagues, soccer leagues, golf, rugby, tennis name it. Very annoying by the way.

The episode was on Tamera's wedding and to be it was all confusing. I never understand why people cry at wedding, she was crying because her planned garden wedding was being threatened by rains. Am sorry, but is that a genuine reason to cry over.The wedding was great, everyone was in smiles, Tamera was so happy and in a way, I couldn't help but picture her as the kid on Sister Sister sitcom. I never pay attention to detail yet am a lady. I have never seen myself as a wife to somebody leave alone plan a wedding. \when I was younger, all i did for fun is climb trees, run around, hide and seek never played house.

That night, I had a nightmare, I dream of my wedding. the whole deal. From wedding gowns, to maidens gowns, flower girl and a page boy, venue and when it came a time for the groom, the face was blur. I woke up trying to catch a breath, scared out of my mind and worse, screaming! That was some scary shit. I finally understood why ladies cry at their wedding; they are scared! That must be it. I was sweating, had to confirm which day it was and time of night just to make sure none of the dream stuff was happening. I run up and down, woke up my people, and when I was asked what's the problem; i told them I never want to get married.

 

 

All in all, I have my answer and will wait it out.  Hopefully it will be as its meant to be. May be too young and doesn't make sense to me now or simply not meant to be married and the guy who'll convince me to be his wife, I will get him a trophy. 

What is it about wedding that scares both men and women? Why do people get married? Is it a must, a right of passage or simply choice? What qualifies one to be the one? How do you tell or simply work with faith? Do people get married out of choice or society pressures? What is this with women and time? Can we have a marriage simply for convenience, like a contract with terms and conditions? Why do people divorce or separate after marriage? and what is this irreconcilable differences in marriage? why were they not there when they were dating/ courting or simply an excuse? Why is it so important that people keep track of the number of years they have been married? why not live it through? 

Now you see why am confused and more so frightened by the idea of marriage. Am not a child from a broken marriage, in the contrary, my parents are together, still married and say they are in love. They still count the years though and my mother is hinting and rather loudly that I need to get a steady boyfriend to be my husband, my girlfriends too are saying the same thing and I don't get it. Probably, am the only one in the globe with such people in their lives, but they need to realize that just because that's what you want doesn't mean we all want it. You get married, have the boyfriend, be happy and I will be happy as well for you. If I do get to be married, I'll remember to tweet it, Facebook it, blog about it or use other social media that would have come up. But until then, I am not in the mood for another wedding show or talk or discussion or involvement. 

This goes out to my fellow Kenyan friends; if you keep your distance from me for more than 2 months, the day you're getting married, don't ask me to be in your wedding committee, am simply not available for those dates and my money is engaged, shameless.! Until then M.Y.O.B people.