Am more confused now than ever.
It's been an year...and every other time I try, I find myself not getting it right. I am a problem solver not a fixer. Difference is a fixer looks for a solution to a problem while a solver looks for the cause of the problem to avoid recurrence of the same problem.
After some thoughts, I came to the problem. I have been into someone all along but being trying so hard to hide and worse ignore all the thoughts of it being true. Look at it this way, the first time you do anything significant in your life, e.g. first day at your job, first day at school, first graduation, first marriage. It is true what they say, you never forget your first.
My dilemma is, I may be reading into something that is not there. It feels good when we get to talk, smile share stories, when they call back, when they text, laugh and all. My mind is telling me yes, body is yelling yes but my heart is ice cold.
My heart is like a clay pot, a live one. If the clay pot was dropped once and cracked, it may forgive the person who dropped it, may be change position it sat. However, if the same clay pot was dropped again by the same person but this time it breaks into little pieces, the pot's friends helped her get herself back into shape, do you think it would allow the person who broke it first, hold her or best own her again? It's all theoretical. I don't think so.
Am in the same boat with the pot. what should I do. Give in or completely move on. Oh well, I need to go now. I will simply let it unfold, see where this goes to, told my sister she looked at me like I had lost my mind, keep it or better more details of it to myself.
CIAO!
It's been an year...and every other time I try, I find myself not getting it right. I am a problem solver not a fixer. Difference is a fixer looks for a solution to a problem while a solver looks for the cause of the problem to avoid recurrence of the same problem.
After some thoughts, I came to the problem. I have been into someone all along but being trying so hard to hide and worse ignore all the thoughts of it being true. Look at it this way, the first time you do anything significant in your life, e.g. first day at your job, first day at school, first graduation, first marriage. It is true what they say, you never forget your first.
My dilemma is, I may be reading into something that is not there. It feels good when we get to talk, smile share stories, when they call back, when they text, laugh and all. My mind is telling me yes, body is yelling yes but my heart is ice cold.
My heart is like a clay pot, a live one. If the clay pot was dropped once and cracked, it may forgive the person who dropped it, may be change position it sat. However, if the same clay pot was dropped again by the same person but this time it breaks into little pieces, the pot's friends helped her get herself back into shape, do you think it would allow the person who broke it first, hold her or best own her again? It's all theoretical. I don't think so.
Am in the same boat with the pot. what should I do. Give in or completely move on. Oh well, I need to go now. I will simply let it unfold, see where this goes to, told my sister she looked at me like I had lost my mind, keep it or better more details of it to myself.
CIAO!
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