What would you have done different?

Today folks, I just want to vent.

I'm writing to you with eyes filled with tears. Tears of my own created misfortune. I've been crying for three days now in my own room in closed doors and I just can't stop it.

Why? Because of love. 

I'm in love with  young man. He treats me good but always seems to have a flare for trouble. All this started when another woman sent me an image of my man's manhood, last month. 

How did she get to me?

last month, I used my man's pic as my profile picture on whatsapp chat. She thought I was him and reintroduced myself as his girlfriend. She said she was the one he was dating. This woman lives in the UK and that didn't make sense to me. To prove her point she sent me a recent photo of his manhood.

When confronted he first lied it was an old photo but evidence stated otherwise, he then confessed it was recent and he was sorry. His reason was that he needed to make the woman jealous. He told me he had blocked her on their chat and I believed him so easily.

Six weeks passed and then, I did the worst thing any woman should do in a relationship. I went through his phone which is always on password. I found out that he never blocked her and were continuing their conversation on face book, his inbox.

He confronted her for sending me the picture as per their last month chat but that wasn't the worst part. He had the audacity of telling the woman that he and I were nothing, not an item not dating as he has not lover nor love life. That pierced through me like a sharp knife cutting flesh.

Before this misfortune, I had recently resigned from my job in this foreign town where we met. I was doing everything in my powers to settle here so as we could be together. My parents and friends asked me to go back to my hometown and asked them for time as I was trying to sort out logistics of staying here with him.

When I confronted him about it, he became defensive and asking why I went through his phone. I was pissed and very angry with myself and him. This is where worse turned to worst. I took his phone again and started chat with this other woman as him. I told her off and asked her to move on with her life as I well him was in love with someone else not her. She was pissed but did agree to it and said she would. I later blocked her on his face book only to find myself on his blocked list, blocked her on whatsapp and then deleted her from his contacts.

By the way, I,m young and she's in her fifties, literally. She's twice my age with a family and two kids. Wonder what else she's lacking.

He found out what I did and got really pissed. Not because I used his phone but because I had burnt the bridge between him and this elderly woman. 

I decided to move out and move in with a friend of mine on transit to my hometown. He seems indifferent about it and that is actually hurting me more. I know I did wrong but what would you have done in my position? hmmm.

I just wish I could move on easily and stop all this crying over spilled milk.